I’m Afraid of Men by Vivek Shraya

Rating: 3/5 stars

I'm Afraid

Pages: 96

Series: n/a

Genres: Nonfiction, Feminism, Autobiography, LGBTQ+

Reading Challenges: 1 (Asian Author: Indian); 3 (author identifies as Trans)

This book is a harder read as it focuses on the harder parts of realizing you identify as trans. It deals with the hard topics of not feeling masculine enough or feminine enough, of not feeling like you belong to either of the binary genders. It shows the good and the bad of identifying as Transgender as experienced by Shraya.

One thing that I found confusing about the book was that Shraya talked about her encounters by referring to the people involved as “you”. I found this hard to follow as she jumped from story to story, but I can appreciate that this is her way of coping with what happened. It’s also a way to protect the identity of those involved, which I appreciate as some of the stories discussed occurred when Shraya was a young boy.

As a white, cisgendered female, I found it very impactful to read about what it’s like for a person of colour to have to struggle with these issues. While I will never experience the terror or uncertainty that people like Shraya have had to/will go through, I hope that these issues become easier to deal with – or even non-existent – in the future.

I’m sorry that people still have to deal with this hatred and bigotry and I hope that one day these problems go away. I know that this will probably never happen, but stories such as Shraya’s go a long way in trying to break the stereotypes and stigmas associated with identifying as queer.

I found it important that Shraya touched on people who believe themselves to be allies yet still don’t fully understand what society has been doing wrong. As someone who considers myself to be an ally, I know it’s hard to imagine what Shraya and others like her go through on a daily basis because I have never been forced to deal with these issues.

I understand that the message gets across the best when allies and other people are forced to deal with actual situations head on, as Shraya mentions, but I wish it did not have to be this way. I wish that victims did not have to relive their trauma or recount the traumas of others in order to get “allies” to understand what is actually happening in the world.

I really do believe that everyone should read stories such as this one in order to fully understand the ordeal that Shraya and others like her have to go through. I would absolutely recommend this book to people, even if just as an entry point to understanding the struggles that people go through. Please, understand that what Shraya talks about is important and more people need to grasp the severity of this issue. If you have already read this story, why not talk about it or other stories like it with your friends and loved ones? Why not share Shraya’s story, lend the people you care about the book, so that they too may understand struggles that they might deal with but other do every day?

 

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For anyone who cares about the Beauty Guru drama that’s happening between James Charles and Tati Westbrook, books like this one show how harmful your actions can be to a person even of you don’t realize it. James Charles has said things that he believed he could get away with because he’s a member of the LGBTQ+ community. And those comments were not okay. The things that James has said recently about transgendered people touches on many of the same things that Shraya touches on in this hard hitting piece. No matter who you are, you need to be aware that the person you’re forcing to act a certain way or do certain things will be scarred by your actions, probably forever. RESPECT people and their decisions, don’t force them to do anything.

Reflection by Elizabeth Lim

Rating: 4/5 stars

Reflection

Pages: 408

Series: Twisted Tales, Book 4

Genres: YA, Fantasy, Retellings

Reading Challenges: 1 (Asian Author: Chinese)

While this book doesn’t fulfill many of the reading challenges for the Asian Readathon, it has been a book I’ve been wanting to read for a while now. I know that I’ve already read a book (or two) that was (were) written by a Chinese author, that didn’t stop me from picking up this book. I aim to read a more diverse selection of books throughout this month, but I’m glad that I picked Reflection up.

As a fan of both Disney and retellings in general, this book was right up my alley. I’ve already read one of the Twisted Tales books and enjoyed that so I was pretty sure that I’d enjoy this one, too. I was not disappointed.

If you’re a person that enjoys historical novels with a twist – like, say, mythological characters thrown in – but don’t mind the book being based on historical events only loosely, you might enjoy this read. Finding out that Mulan was a real person that fought for China when I was a kid made me love her story even more.

Mulan remains one of my favourite Disney movies of all time. This book made me remember just how much I love the story. While I know the Disney movie isn’t 100% true to history, I can’t help but want to learn more about Fa Mulan after reading this book.

I’m glad that this book was written as it widened my understanding of Chinese mythology and folklore. It took some of the things that I enjoyed so much as a child – like Mushu, Mulan’s guardian – and brought it to the forefront of the story in a new way. Lim did a wonderful job at making her characters jump out of the story and settle themselves in my brain.

This book was also be a great book for a younger person to read if they’re into fantasy. While generally YA books are labeled such as the main characters are in that age range, this story was written such that it is easy to follow and is not graphic. While this book may be taking place within a war, it does not go through any gruesome descriptions that might upset a young reader.

I enjoyed that there was a tiny hint of the romance that takes place in the movie, but that this romance did not take over the story. It was alluded to multiple times throughout the book, but it wasn’t until the very end that there was any romance payoff.

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Not Your Sidekick by C.B. Lee

Rating: 4 stars

Not your Sidekick

Pages: 283

Series: The Sidekick Squad, Book 1

Genres: YA, LGBT, Fantasy, SciFi

Reading Challenges Met: 1 (Asian author: Chinese/Vietnamese); 3 (many intersectional characters, main character is of Asian intersectional identity)

One of the overarching goals/challenges of this Readathon is to read books written by different Asian ethnicities. As the first book I read was written by a Japanese person, I decided to go for a different Asian ethnicity this time (Chinese/Vietnamese).

This story is about a girl, Jess, who has resigned herself to live in a world full of superheros and supervillains with no powers of her own. Finally admitting to herself that she’s normal (that is, without powers), Jess applies for an internship as a way to set herself apart from the rest and to look good on her college applications. This internship ends up being for the supervillain of her city. Add to that her crush also works at the lab and a budding friendship/attraction with the mysterious “M”, and the internship is more interesting than Jess expected.

Overall, this book had a healthy dose of LGBTQ+ representation. I believe that this representation was wonderfully written as it did not marginalize these characters or make it seem as if they were out the outskirts of society because of their sexuality or gender identity. It prominently showcased bi, gay, lesbian, and trans characters.

To me, the romances shown in this story were well written. They were believable for teenage romances, each character acting the way I believe a character would when it comes to dealing with insecurities and jealousy.

Lee also did an amazing job at writing about trying to find your place when you feel like you’re not enough, the way Jess does for most of the book. Right from the beginning it’s obvious that Jess feels like she’s not good enough to be a part of her family and the reader really gets to see her growth as a person on this (and other issues) throughout the book.

I believe that this is a great opening book to the series as it really captured my attention. The plot was engaging and intense, I never felt like the plot was dragging on or too slow. As well, a lot was packed into this book without making things feel rushed. If you’re a person that enjoys reading about super humans, and you’re not against reading about teenagers, this would be a good book for you.

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As Miss Beelzebub Likes by Matoba

Rating: 3 stars

As Miss B

Pages: 141

Series: As Miss Beelzebub Likes

Genres: Manga, Fantasy, Romance, Humour/Comedy

Reading Challenges Met: 1 (Asian author: Japanese); 2 (it’s a manga); 4 (was originally written in Japanese and then translated to English)

This manga was an entertaining read, though it didn’t meet the expectations I had going into it. I expected a more cohesive plot than there was, though there was the barest hint of a larger plot behind all of the one page gags. I’m sure that if I were to continue to read on with the series, which I might still do, the hidden plot will eventually become more of a focal point. It is labeled a romance manga, after all.

The characters themselves were interesting. I liked the way that Matoba wrote them, each one having a unique personality. If I do decide to continue on with the series it’ll be because of the characters and not the plot.

If you’re into slapstick comedy and one liners, this manga might be more your taste than it was mine. Don’t let the talk of romance keep you from it, the romance part of the story is very minor. Also reading about demons is always fun.

 

Asian Readathon TBR

I have decided this month to participate in the Asian Readathon. This readathon is a month long affair and is very flexable in its requirements, which I appreciate. It is being hosted by Cindy (from ReadWithCindy), Sandra (from GotAThingForThings), Chloe (from BooksWithChloe), Kav (from xReadingSolacex), and Ellias (from ElliasReads). All five of these individuals are BookTubers and I recommend checking their channels out if you haven’t already.

For more information about the Readathon, I suggest checking out their Twitter “@asianreadathon” as they have already been very active on it. This is also an easy way to find the Master List of Book Suggestions and Reading Goals/Prompts for the Readathon.

While I expect to deviate from this selection of books slightly, and to add to it as the month progresses, here is my (current) TBR for the Readathon:

Books:

Reflections by Elizabeth Lim: This is a retelling of Mulan, in which Fa Mulan goes further than disguising herself as a man named Ping. In this novel, Mulan must travel to the Underworld in order to save Li Shang’s life as he sacrificed himself to save her. As this story is focused (very loosely) around Chinese history, I believe this books works wonderfully for this Readathon.

The Sun is also a Star by Nicola Yoon: This story takes place when Natasha finds out that her family is being deported back to Jamaica. The day before they leave, she runs into a boy named Daniel. As Daniel is a person that has Korean ancestry, I thought that this month would be a perfect time to read this book. I’ve had the desire to read the book for a while now, and what’s a better time to do so than during an Asian Readathon?

As Miss Beelzebub Likes by Matoba (Vol 1): A manga that was originally written in Japanese, this book fulfills more than one of the readings prompts for the Readathon. The concept of Satan’s right hand [wo]man being a ditz and all about love sounds intriguing to me. I’m looking forward to reading the first volume of the series and, hopefully, continuing on with series.

Everything Here is Beautiful by Mira T. Lee: This is a story about two sisters and their journey through love, loyalty, and heartbreak. This is a book that deals heavily with mental health, a topic that is extremely important to understand.

A Thousand Beginnings and Endings edited by Ellen Oh & Elsie Chapman: This is the group book of the Readathon, to be discussed in a live stream on Cindy’s channel May 25th at 6pm EST. It is an anthology based around the authors’ own East and South Asian cultures.

Descendant of the Crane by Joan He: As He is a Chinese author, this story is perfect for this Readathon. It is about Princess Hesina of Yan dealing with the aftermath of her father’s murder and her sudden elevation to queen. Hesina turns to Akira, a cunning investigator with his own past, to help solve her father’s murder.